Nevertheless, -- Episode 7: Never Be an Option

I am finding it very hard to empathize with Park Jae Eon anymore. I don't appreciate his or Bit Na's push-pull relationship mentality. They're both complete turn-offs. Nor do I like that Nabi allows it to continue; at least Kyu Hyun doesn't. The more I see of Jae Eon, the more I realize he is driven by a desire to be adored by everyone, and it's probably why he chases physical affection the way he does.

I hate the rollercoaster that comes with watching Nabi and Kyu Hyun struggle with their emotions for people who don't care for them the way they should. As for Nabi, all she sees right now is Jae Eon making a grand gesture to win her back. And rather than break free, she chooses to remain in emotional hell than be without that deep emotional connection she mistakes for more than what it really is -- physical affection. I know it's so much easier to judge looking from the outside in, but monogamous relationships are that — two people, not multiple people. I wish Nabi wouldn't compromise her worth and give her all to Jae Eon when he only sees her as an option. She has no one to blame but herself for what's to come.

Yang Do Hyuk, on the other hand, is on an entirely different level. He is sweet, considerate, genuine both in words and in action. He's everything Nabi wished Jae Ein was, and everything he does is practically to let Nabi know love doesn't have to be anxious or insincere; it doesn't draw lines, nor does it pull or push. Of all the relationships Yoon Sol and Ji Wan move me the most and the ones I am wholeheartedly rooting for the most. There is nothing worse than silently suffering, not being able to confess your love or be with the person you want to be without fear of retaliation. They both deserve to experience love fully, equally, without shame, and without compromise -- love is never wrong.

Jae Eon might have been able to sweet-talk his way back into Nabi's, but it's only a matter of time before he is back to his usual self, and the pull-push pattern starts all over again. What's worse is Nabi knows this cycle will not end until she is courageous enough to end the relationship. And so does Kyu Hyun. I am glad he decided to break free of Bit Na (I appreciate her less and less with each episode) and her fear of intimacy. I hope he stays steadfast with his decision. But even as I say this, I believe both Bit Na and Jae Eon may be in love with Nabi and Kyu Hyun but are they strong enough to overcome their insecurities; I doubt it.

I am not sure where Nabi thinks her pull-push cycle of relationship with Jae Eon will end, but if I were to guess, it's nowhere good and will continue like that until she lets herself see the issues and recognize them for what they are. Only when she admits she's in a push-pull relationship will she be able to take the necessary steps to break away. It's actually the same for everybody, even Yoon Sol and Ji Wan.

I personally think it’s best that everybody but especially Jae Eon, Nabi, Kyu Hyun, and Bit Na all go their separate ways and work on their issues, be it the fear of intimacy or abandonment because things will never get better for any of them until they know their self-worth and understand they deserve to love and be loved. But with that said, I think Bit Na and Jae Eon may likely be in love, but they won't realize the extent of what and how they fell until they fix their problems and overcome their demons. Watch episode 7 here. RIO Heavy Heart OST.